Recently, one of my professors asked me how I felt, now that I was "rolling into the finish line" on this whole grad school deal - I give my final Capstone Presentation in just a few daze. I really had to stop and think. This particular teacher is someone I truly admire and respect, Thea Bellos - a great woman, from whom I've learned a thing or two! Once, after I had thanked her for all the support she had given me (including my impression that she is one of a few who "get" me), she replied, "I try to see everyone in their own specialness...you wanted to be seen and that's the first step." That was the first time I ever got positive recognition for wanting attention. So, I didn't want to just be clever. Since she was kind enough to ask, I wanted to give her an honest assessment of my emotional state. Which meant I had to give myself a chance to stop thinking about it for a minute and try to feel how I felt.
Anyway, below are some reflections on "graduating" from grad school.
. . .hhhmmm, how do I feel?
Well, a little numb, a little overwhelmed, anxious, tired, proud, frightened, confident, and somewhat disconnected.
I am quite sure that the GreenMBA (at Dominican University - the only "real" / trademarked "GreenMBA") was the best choice for me as far as grad school goes. Nevertheless, I am still not really sure what that actually means.
I still need to figure out where I fit in and which way to herd this pony.
Since I am not an entrepreneur type, nor am I Super-Greenie on a particular mission, I feel slightly set adrift, but kinda in a good way.
At least I'm now educated, experienced, and relatively healthy (if not yet wealthy and wise) - at least I have aspirations now, instead of mere pretensions and affectations.
Yes, indeed, I wanted to be SEEN. In fact I can't imagine NOT wanting to be seen. That is to say, I can definitely relate to wanting to "hide-out" sometimes; but that's not quite the same as "not wanting to be seen," is it?
